Saturday, October 9, 2010

crappy chemo side effect of the day

i guess you could post a post a day about each crappy side effect, and i suppose different chemo patients would have varying degrees of crapiness.  Sometimes we all feel we can relate to each other, but sometimes we notice how each experience is unique. 
but today, what is bugging me the most is the crying, like pms hormone to the MAX. i can't stop. it's ridic. everything makes me cry:
this episode of chopped
my 12 year old's trials & tribulations, successes & failures
my 9 year olds cute exhaustion that only comes from a good time
happy pretty people walking around town
my friends 1 year old son at the children's museum, innocent smile
the fact that i'm happy
the fact that i'm not done yet
my low GI cookbook (see, it's not your average cry fest)
kindness
my cute daddy
a poem
the past
the future
my tiredness
my reflection
the love

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  1. There's no reason you shouldn't have a good cry. Sometimes letting all that emotion out feels very good. A giant virtual hug and kiss! Unfortunately virtual tissues just make the screen kind of icky!

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  2. Thank you for saying this. Thank you for honoring this feeling in yourself. We cancer patients have a tendency to keep a stiff upper lip not for ourselves, but for everyone else, who have a terrible time with our discomfort and anxiety and boredom and feeling bad.

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  3. Let it out, Nanette. And know I am here if you want a shoulder.

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  4. I always say crying is the second best thing you can do for yourself. You are going through a lot (physically and emotionally) and the last thing you need is to try and hold any of that in. Just keep crying and letting those feelings out as they come. And remember that there are friends who love you and would be happy to hand you tissues or let you cry on our shoulders :)

    PS- The best thing you can do for yourself? Shopping of course!

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  5. I am so proud of you. I love your Blog. You are so brave. I am so blessed to have met you when I moved to Austin. Namaste. xo

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  6. "the fact that I'm not done yet"

    Wow. That line right there made my day. I cannot tell you how much I LOVE that attitude. Can't wait to see what you do next, my dear.

    Much love.

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  7. Hi Nanette!

    I have been following your blog for awhile now and am just blown away by your spirit of optimism and joy. It's incredible and so inspiring to me. I honestly do not know how you do it. I hope you know what a strong woman you are, and that you see resilience when you look in the mirror. You are proof that there is nothing that can't be overcome. I will be hoping and praying for strength, comfort, joy and healing for you. You are an amazing woman and your children are blessed to have you. Thank you for being so transparent and encouraging me to keep my chin up and keep marching no matter what.

    So much love,

    - Lauren

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  8. Sending prayerful support your way.

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  9. So inspiring to see someone with cancer taking it with a side of glitter. You seem like an amazing mom and I am hoping you feel better soon!

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  10. We're definitely all here for you either electonically or in person. Know that.

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  11. I don't know you, but I wanted to say that I think you're an incredibly brave woman, and you and your family will be in my thoughts.

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  12. You are a brave and shining soul! My heart goes out to you for having to live through breast cancer and the treatment - but you WILL live. Your strength and optimism will help your body heal faster. In the meantime, I admire you for putting it all out there - the good and the bad - and honoring every feeling you're experience. That's healthy and smart and courageous. Keep expressing yourself and looking for the good, even as you acknowledge the bad. Know you are loved.

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  13. Hi Nanette! Your strength is ridiculously amazing. Your kids are lucky to have you. Keep your chin up always and keep shining.

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  14. Keep writing! It's as good as a good cry. Hang tough and think positive.
    Angel blessings....

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  15. I am overwhelmed by the beauty of you.

    All love, all hope,
    Aleigh

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  16. Sending extra thoughts your way. I can tell from reading through your blog that you are a very strong woman and you will conquer this!

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  17. the fact that i'm happy
    the fact that i'm not done yet
    --
    Wow! Do me a favor and hold onto those two things for a while, all right? Write them down and stick them on your mirror or something if you have to; just remember them!

    And it's okay to cry. Sometimes you just have to let it out!

    Thoughts and prayers (and virtual hugs) coming your way today!

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  18. Crying is so healthy! I often wonder what God truly intended with tears since we cry when we are sad and we cry when we are happy - both ends of the spectrum! He must know that it is needed, maybe a cleanser of sorts? Try to see the positive in your tears, for it is natural and healing and the outward 'showmanship' of the fact that you have feelings to share! Loving you from way over here!

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  19. I have been told it is good to cry. Cry till you are done and then cry a little more. Then you can start to move on.

    Give yourself the cry you need.

    Hugs for being so brave.

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  20. I bet you're still glittering- even when you're crying.

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  21. You are amazing for writing about this experience and documenting your story. Some days are good ones, some days aren't, and that's just the truth of it.

    You are loved and cherished just for being yourself, day by day. My thoughts and love are with you.

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  22. I am absolutely in awe of you. I don't know how I would react to this terrible situation if I were in your shoes ... but I am not convinced that I would be able to handle it with as much grace, dignity and optimism as you have. My mother is definitely the strongest person I have ever known and I'm sure that your children feel the exact same way about you. I am sending you all of the best wishes and good vibes and am hoping for a your speedy and complete recovery. The world needs more amazing people like you around.

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  23. Hi Nanette,
    You don't know me, but I feel like I know you. Your openness and candor on your blog is inspiring. What made me cry - your blog. You are special, and beautiful, and so very inspiring. Each day, we have the opportunity to meet someone that is inspiring or moving, that makes a difference. You are that person for me today. I am sending you a giant hug and much love. Keep on rockin' the nation with your awesomeness!

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  24. BTW-forgot to say that in tears there is stress hormone released-so there is a reason you feel better after crying.

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  25. Sometimes you just need a good cry. And not that any reason at all wouldn't be valid, but you have a particularly good basis for needing some quality letting-it-out time. I hope the side effects become less severe for you, and I hope that you continue to have happy tears for the beautiful things in your life. Your kids are lucky to have such a cool mom.

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  26. Stay strong and positive Nanette. You may not know it now but you are providing your children with the best role-model they could possibly ever want or have. This is a trying time but with the help of your family, children, and loving stangers, you will survive and become a loving and healthy grandmother!

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  27. I'm sending you love, encouragement to cry all you want to or need to(even tho you don't want to), and sharing with you and your kids and your cute daddy this beautiful autumn day. I hope your spirits remain high and that you can feel the love, love, love, LOVE coming your way! You are strong enough to handle anything that comes your way. Your strength and bravery are gifts that you received from the first breath you took, so KEEP BREATHING DEEPLY AND FEEL THE LOVE! Have a wonderful day, my friend.
    Susie

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  28. You are so much an inspiration... your children are blessed to have a mother like you!

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  29. Nanette, your battle is worth it. You are spectacular. Your strength is inspiring, encouraging, courageous. You are perfect. Thank you for sharing your journey, and wishing you all the very best on your path.
    xo

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  30. Hi Nanette,

    I am a single mother too, and have struggled with health problems of my own. Thank you for sharing your story and optimism. I believe that we are so blessed in so many ways, and life's challenges can be overcome and managed with the right outlook and a great capacity for love and courage. It's okay to cry. It's normal, it's healthy. And it makes smiling and laughing feel all the more wonderful. God bless you.

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  31. It's okay to cry. You're brave and strong, and an inspiration.

    Sending love and good thoughts from the wilderness of the internet.

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  32. Be strong and very courageous! People of your character can move mountains!!! Press on through the tears, and one day those will be tears of only happiness and joy!

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  33. Nanette,
    You are an inspiration to me! Your strength and courage amaze me! Your outlook is remarkable and I feel like I know your spirit through reading much of your blog. I am praying for your full recovery, your children's peace of mind and a bright future for you. Take comfort in knowing you are loved by so many people who do not know you but know your story. Like so many, my life has been touched by your plight. My aunt, grandmother and a few co-workers have all faced breast cancer. I know the ravages of chemo and pray that you find comfort as you battle this disease. God be with you.
    With love and light,
    Vickie F

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  34. your attitude is incredible, and so inspiring to others! cry as much as you need to; get it all out, and most importantly when you're done, keep going! you are so brave! sending positive thoughts your way <3 xo

    Chelsea

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  35. I'm sorry you are going through this tough time! I think crying is perfectly fine---healing, in fact. You are doing a great job balancing everything. Sending you a smile today!

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  36. Whatever you are going through please keep in mind that you are an inspiration to those who doesnt know what it is like to have breast cancer. You are in my thoughts and prayers today. Keep up the great spirit! Godbless you

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  37. Just wanted to send you a note of support and let you know lots of people are rooting for you . by the way it never hurt anyone to cry in fact its even good for you. Now go set down in front of the boob tube , put on a favorite comedy and cry /laugh till you can't
    hope you have many brighter days to come
    Carolyn h (from love bombed )

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  38. Keep crying Sweetie If nothing else it scares your children so bad they behave for awhile. ;) Laugh through the tears your sense of humor will see you through more than you know. My prayers are with you sending love and please get Puffs with aloe so your nose doesn't get raw too! YOU WILL DEFEAT THIS!-Ang

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  39. you are a strong & beautiful woman.
    please know you are loved & that we are all cheering you on in your struggles.

    you're in my prayers.

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  40. Chemo and it's side effects suck - I remember when my friend from church started wearing her headscarf because her hair has fallen out.

    Another one of my friends says "Sometimes it's good to have a cry just don't cry on your own". I hope that you have someone who will hug you and take care of you while you cry and don't be alone lovely.

    You are an inspiration and keep fighting

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  41. I absolutely hate to cry, but sometimes it is the best relase possible for all the emotion we hold within ourselves. You definitely have a lot of emotion to relase, so feel free to cry! Even if it means crying all day, at least it means you are still alive and still feeling.

    I am so sorry to hear about your breast cancer diagnosis. I wish you all the luck in the world with chemo and I will be thinking about you and sending you well wishes (and your girls as well). As someone who lost a parent at a young age I really wish your family all the love and strength to make it through this difficult time. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, please do not hesistate to contact me! I would love to help you in any way possible.

    - Laura

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  42. You are incredibly amazing. The bad days make the good days even more glorious. Cry it out and laugh it up whenever you need to.

    You don't know me but I will be thinking of you and wishing you more beautiful days ahead.

    April

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  43. Nanette,

    Your strength & perseverance is an inspiration.

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  44. I'm 60 and have known a fair number of people with breast cancer. It's a difficult thing to bear and fight. I greatly admire your courage and attitude and wish you the very best.

    Mike

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  45. I love your website. It's so pink and pretty. Keep on posting. Writing can be the best therapy.

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  46. Sending prayers and love to you and your children. You are brave and strong.

    Hugs and blessings.

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  47. I just came across your blog and I am so encouraged by your words! You are loved, you are valued, you are seen and you are known. I'm praying for you; for strength, joy, peace and comfort like you never known before. You are an amazing woman and you have great things ahead of you!

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  48. As Curtis Mayfield said: "Keep on keeping on."

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t-l91O9VxN0

    You can do it!

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  49. You have touched many hearts and we are all cheering you on. I'm crying right along with you. Thank you for your honesty and transparency. Sending you hugs.

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  50. Even though I have never met you, I want to send you a BIG hug!! Think of your tears as the cancer melting away, you are healing! I wish you the very best. Take care of yourself.

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  51. At the risk of adding another cry - you're facing the disease head on and you're not just surviving, you're flourishing. It's okay to hurt, and to not know what is coming around the next turn. What matters most - what you seem to know - is that right now is precious.

    Love your family. Let them love you. Let the community around you support you. Let us love you.

    <3

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  52. Nanette:

    You are my new role model for what it means to be a strong woman, a wonderful mom and an unstoppable human being. I can't pretend to know what it's like to go through chemo, but I can send so much positive thoughts and energy your way that you'll kick this cancer's ass with or without chemo! **sending now**

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  53. All those tears make room for all the strength, love, and joy that you need to continue this journey.

    Loving your blog; the glitter in your soul is really shining through!

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  54. "The soul would have no rainbow had the eyes no tears." ~ John Vance Cheney

    Nanette,
    Your optimism is an inspiration. Let the tears run so that when this storm is over your rainbow will shine.

    You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

    xoxo,
    M

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  55. We are all cheering you on, Nanette!!!! You are an inspiration to all. xoxo

    Much love,
    Valerie

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  56. Having to go through the worst, and still seeing the brighter side of things is an incredibly admirable quality. Sending love and prayers your way xx

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  57. Wow... What a brilliant spirit you have. I can tell it in everything you write here, especially that you find yourself crying over "happy pretty people walking around town". I love that. No, you aren't done yet. The world will make plenty of time for spirits like yours.

    You are beautiful, love.

    msred5@yahoo.com

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  58. "The soul would have no rainbow had the eyes no tears." ~John Vance Cheney

    Crying is the awesome side-effect of being deeply, truly aligned with the tidal currents of life lived in fullness. Everything affects you, because you are connected to everything. And as such, emotions are stronger, colors brighter, senses richer and more pronounced. Embrace these tears as a gift, a salty communion with the world at large. They help make you glitter all the brighter!

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  59. I cannot imagine going through chemo and being a single mom. You are so brave.
    Hang in there and God Bless you and your family!

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  60. "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."

    Isaiah 41:10

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  61. The crying will end, the struggle will end, and so will this battle! You will win, Nanette!

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  62. I love your blog. My sister had cancer when she was 17; that was six years ago and she is totally clear now, we have a 'Cancerversary' each year to celebrate her conquering it. Your strength and love is inspiring. Keep glittering. XX Arohanui.

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  63. Thank you for sharing your journey. It really helps others going through similar. I can see you are going love your way right through this. Blessings to you and your children and all those that support you.

    Sophia

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  64. Nanette, You are an inspiration. Keep posting and emoting! You are an amazing person. I appreciate your posts, pictures, and honest feelings. And yes, Gemini or not, we can all have multiple, conflicting emotions about just about anything, including having cancer. Thanks for acknowledging that. I'm cheerleading you on to the end of this mini journey within the larger journey of your life. Live large!

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  65. You are an amazing, beautiful person! I could never be able to go through all that and still remain sane.

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  66. Well I can't say I've cried at Chopped, but I think more than a few contestants have. :)

    Hang in there, cry when you need to, and give your kids, family, friends, or even strangers a great big hug when you are done. We're all here to help when you need it.

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  67. There can be miracles, when you believe
    Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
    Who knows what miracles you can achieve
    When you believe, somehow you will
    You will when you believe

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  68. First thing: I'm cheering for you. Having seen many friends go through what you're going through, I know you can make it with a little faith and hope. Keep plugging away despite the tears!

    Second thing: Well done on using "redic." Second best abbrev behind "hung." Best when combined!

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  69. "A hero is an ordinary individual who finds the strength to persevere and endure in spite of overwhelming obstacles." - Christopher Reeve

    You are a HERO for not giving up, for holding on and for smiling at life. You are truly great.

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  70. YOU ROCK! And you are a rock to others.

    "Are you breathing just a little, and calling it a life?" (-Mary Oliver)

    Keep living your strongest, most kick-ass breathing-hard life, laughing, crying, taking any strength you can from others and calling it your own. You deserve it! You are an inspiration.

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  71. Hang in there. Life has a way of bringing blessings from adversity. Your community cares a lot about you!

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  72. Your tears are beautiful. Even though they come from a tough place, they are still tears that come from Living Life. Keep that in mind as you keep moving forward. So much love and respect for you and your shining attitude. xoxo

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  73. This post is so humanizing. It's just reminding me to pay attention and notice the details. The innocent smile of a one year old making you cry? That just reconnected me to a part of me I hadn't been in touch with for awhile.

    Your children are fortunate to have such a glittery shining example for a mom.

    <3

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  74. I admire you so much, dear. You are a beautiful, strong person, and you are an inspiration to everyone who reads this.
    Don't forget to love yourself, and to take time to pamper yourself a bit. You deserve it.

    Love, Inge

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  75. Stay strong! There's still so much good in the world, especially you!

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  76. I am rooting for you, applauding you, cheering you on. If tears come on the road, let them come. As I walk through my day today, each time I stand up or sit down I will include a prayer and blessing for you and your family. You are not alone. "We cannot know what you go through or see through your eyes, but we will surround you with love undisguised. Wherever you go to, whatever you do, you're taking our love there with you." - Ann Reed

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  77. Just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you, sending good vibes and big hugs! Stay strong!

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  78. I've written at least 50 columns over the past ten years about people who have overcome tremendous challenges. What they had in common was an attitude similar to yours. There's a smile behind those tears of yours and it's awesome to see. All the best from Nanaimo, British Columbia.

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  79. CRY! Cry. cry.

    You'll do whatever it takes to beat this thing. So allow yourself a mental and emotional reboot when you need it.

    You are strong and warm and kind.

    glitter for you,
    Lori

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  80. Hey the best thing we can teach our children is to cry. Too many of us go through life never letting anyone seeing us cry or be vulnerable, kids and adults need to know that crying is good for the soul, and helps us heal faster, rebound faster and bond with others in the world, so keep on showing your kids and family and friends that you are not afraid to cry, just say It's part of my healing powers.

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  81. Some days we laugh, other days we cry, but it is all a part of just 'being'.

    You are a strong and brave woman facing a difficult situation with much grace and pride. I admire you for choosing to have a positive outlook.

    Sending you many healing thoughts and prayers!!!

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  82. You are an amazing woman. And from a child's point of view with a mother with cancer, I know how your children feel and they will become so much stronger because of this. You're so inspirational, please never stop fighting.
    LOVE YOU XX

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  83. It matters not how strait the gate,
    How charged with punishments the scroll,
    I am the master of my fate:
    I am the captain of my soul.

    ______________
    Each and every day we have the chance to be amazing, beautiful creatures of light.

    You are a beautiful amazing creature.

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  84. Dear Nanette,
    You are special. Keep believing that there is light and sparkles at the end of this trial. So many beat this. Stay happy, cry when the tears start to flow and try and get outside. Just changing your environment helps the down times. You are a child of the universe. Be blessed.

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  85. Praying for you today. You are a beautiful, worthy woman... We're all with you!

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  86. You should know that you are an inspiration to all who are touched by you. You're strength and willingness to admit your weakness are admirable and help others to understand it is okay to feel weak. Your love for your children is unmistakable and they are lucky to have a role model and a Mother like you to model their lives after. My thoughts are with you and your family.

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  87. Stay strong hun.

    Praying for you and all the women that are struggling with this terrible disease.

    My Mom was diagnosed recently too. Because she was diligent about getting her mammy every year, it was caught early. Her doctors are very optomistic.

    Know that you have a huge family of sisters out here that are praying for you, cheering for you, and sometimes crying for you.

    Stay strong, and "fight like a girL"

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  88. My Mom used to tell me that crying was good for you, that it cleaned out your eyes. I can't say much that hasn't already been said other than to know that the power of positive thinking goes a long way and you obviously have a lot of that behind you. Good luck in your journey, sending lot's of love and positive vibes!

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  89. Sending prayers your way. Be blessed.

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  90. Sometimes, a good cry is just what you need. And there are always people here you can share it with x

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  91. I can tell that you are such a strong, brave and incredible woman! Never forget that! Let the tears flow and know that it's ok to cry! You are an inspiration. I'll be thinking of you and praying for you!

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  92. Cry! You are strength and love and beauty. Sending you warm thoughts of peace. May the waves get easier and easier to ride.

    Namaste.

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  93. "the love"

    Love is a very powerful feeling. It does have the power to make you cry. Love will always be there for you. Love will bring you to tears. No matter how hard life might get, LOVE will pick you up, and it comes in many forms. It's awesome to see people know and trust "the love."

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  94. Thought of this groovy poem by Amy Berkowitz

    BEAUTIFUL CRYING

    Sometimes when I’m sad
    For a stupid self-pitying reason
    I say what I’m sad about out loud in French
    And it sounds beautiful because I am triste
    And sitting by a window as the sun sets
    And wearing something special made of lace
    And when I cry it is beautiful crying
    And the tears I cry are very expensive
    And an unusual kind of music plays
    And it’s in black and white
    And everyone who watches it says
    That beautiful girl has a legitimate reason to be sad
    And women all over the world rush to salons
    And ask for the haircut I had

    You are not having a pity party. You DO have a legitimate reason to let off some steam and anguish over the situation, or cry for the beauty and joy you see around you, or best of all, cry because you are NOT DONE YET. And, if all else fails and you've had enough, perhaps all you need to do is to dream of black and white movies set in 1920's France!

    Lot's of love and blessings your way!
    - Christy

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  95. If everyone in the world had an attitude like yours, it would be a much better place. Keep on keeping on, you can beat this!

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  96. i hope the spontaneous waterworks pass soon. keep up the fight! it may not be over today, but one day you will beat this cancer. you are amazing :)

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  97. Cry on, sister! There may be a blessing in disguise here of letting old junk out. I hope this is a time of healing for you of all kinds.

    So cry on, and fight on. You'll come out on top of this stronger than ever before.

    Love from Chicago.

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  98. Hey there.
    My aunt, godmother, and hero was recently re-diagnosed with breast cancer. She lost her beautiful, long blond hair just in time for her son's wedding, almost had to quit her job as a nurse(she could only work in the oncology wing, with her fellow cancer patients), and a score of other problems. And all this a SECOND time after ten years cancer-free. She is still the strongest person I know. But from what I've read, you're a close second.
    Keep fighting. I know you can beat this thing. It doesn't matter how many tears you shed, you've been given a crappy hand, and you're entitled to let it show. I don't if you're religious, but I'll keep you in my prayers.

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  99. Keep it up - time to shine! :)

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  100. Nannette,
    You are a true inspiration to me. You are one of the most brave people I have ever read about, and I want you to know that you made me cry...in a very good way. To know that you can be so happy and so grateful for things in your life, is extremely uplifting -and we should all feel as lucky to be alive and happy as you are!!
    Thank you.
    VG

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  101. Did you know that tears have chemicals that help you heal? Did you notice that sometimes you feel better after a good cry? So crying is actually a good thing! I'm so jealous I just might have a good cry here in California with you!! You're in my thoughts and prayers. I admire your courage and spirit and determination to keep going with a positive attitude. You're teaching your kids some awesome lessons, and fighting your cancer with some amazing medicine. God bless you. Pastor Diane

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  102. hang in there! we're all here to support you.

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  103. I've been moved by your blog this morning (particularly your 'music is me' entry) and am now ready to iron/dance/sing to some of my favorites just being me and sending happy, healing vibes your way.

    Thank you for being here and sharing your beautiful thoughts with all of us.

    Lots of love,
    Sarah

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  104. Wow, you are super human! All the best to you in your life and it's challenges. My husband is a 20 year cancer survivor and there is not a day that passes that isn't amazing--no matter how boring it may seem!

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  105. nanette, u are loved, brave, strong, and beautiful. if cry is good to relieve some pains, just cry... we love you and always pray for you. kisses from Jakarta, Indonesia, mezo.

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  106. I can feel your strength and determination! I hope you can feel the all the love, support, and prayers coming your way.

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  107. You are an inspiration to us all! Your optimism has touched my heart! Hugs, love and much respect

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  108. Nannette,

    My sister had breast cancer for the past three years and she has two girls (5 and 8). She tells me how it has helped her appreciate life more and to love more.

    Be strong and hope love grows in your life.

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  109. I hope you're feeling better now and if you need a hug I´m sending plenty of them 4 u ✿◕‿◕✿

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  110. Crying can be good for the soul sometimes. I'm wishing you all the best, and a future with many more happy tears than sad.

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  111. A full day of crying can certainly get tiresome, but it looks like there's a lot of positive reasons in there.
    Keep looking up, and know you've got people who care, even about the little things.

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  112. Nanette,
    Bless your heart! You are real.......I love that, and I pray for you to have healing, and to continue on with the courage, tears, and strength to get through each day and most of all, I pray for the Lord to shine his face upon you and bring you peace. You are an inspiration to me and all the many others who have read this today, and I appreciate you!
    Big hugs and love sent to you!
    Keep smiling & shining,
    Charlotte :) *

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  113. Keep going girl! Nothing wrong with having a cry. Hugs and postivie thoughts to you!!

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  114. Sometimes I get those crazy PMS horomone cry over everything for no reason days. The difference here is you've got a reason to let out a good cry every now and then. Even strong people cry, and that's OK. You only have so many tears to cry, but that strength to continue is a part of you. Sending prayers and a little extra strength your way :)

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  115. Nanette, you are beautiful inside and out. Thankful to have stumbled upon your blog. You are an inspiration to so many

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  116. You have an army of people who support you. I am sorry you are having to go through this, and I wish you the best. Just keep your chin up, your shoulders back and a smile on your face, even when the tears are streamimng down.

    Much love.

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  117. I wish I could have a good cry these days. They can be so refreshing. Thank you for reminding me that it's ok to cry, it's ok to feel, it's ok to have emotions.
    I am so glad that many of your tears come from happy things. Happy tears are the best!
    You are loved, Nanette! Keep it going, girl!

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  118. On my low days, I tick off a list of all the things I am thankful for. Sounds like you have a lot to be thankful for too! Positive thoughts coming your way today. God Bless.

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  119. Just know that many people are loving you and praying for you!

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  120. You have the biggest soul I have seen in a long time! You don't know how many people you are touching today! Sending my love to you! <3

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  121. Thinking of you today. You are an amazing and inspiring individual. You deserve every message of love that comes your way.

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  122. You are truly inspiring. Stay strong!

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  123. stay strong, don't give up, you're a beautiful person.

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  124. Your bravery and insight is so inspiring. You are gorgeous and I'm thinking of you! There are a lot of people who care about you.
    Sending you thousands of hugs!

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  125. Nanette,
    I am cheering you on here. Well done for pushing on through. Thinking of you and sending positive vibes your way, and a whole bunch of hugs. xx

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  126. I think you're incredibly strong and brave! Crying is one of the best emotionally cleansing things you can do for yourself. Besides, it clears your head, too! Let it out, those tears will help heal you all over from the inside out. Good luck with everything. Sending tons of {{{{{hugs}}}}} and prayers.
    Joan

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  127. You are amazing.

    Crying is probably one of the best things you can do for yourself. There is nothing good out of keeping tears to yourself - when you let them out you share the joy with everyone else.

    After all, they invented Kleenex for a reason.

    Keep strong, stay beautiful, and keep inspiring others like me.

    Best wishes :)

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  128. Being able to let yourself cry takes courage and from what I can see, courage isn't something you are lacking :) I am sending you positive thoughts and hope that all the love sent your way can make your beautiful spirit shine a little brighter.

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  129. Mu mother had breast cancer when I was four. It was really bad, but she has been in remission for a long time. She got through it by listening to meditation tapes. I remember when she started to lose her hair we collected it and made a paper bag puppet.
    And when she got her wig, my mind immediately jumped to the conclusion that her hair had miraculously regrown in a morning.
    Anyway, I just wanted you to know you aren't alone and if any of this makes you smile, I am happy. Stay strong, you are a beautiful person. :)

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  130. There's nothing wrong with a big long cry. I'm sending you good thoughts and hugs! You are strong, beautiful, brave and amazing!! Keep fighting!

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  131. Dear Nanette -
    I've read some of your posts and am really impressed by your attitude. You seem like such a strong woman! Sending lots of love and happy thoughts your way!

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  132. cry as much as you need to. laugh as much as you can. just keep going...

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  133. You're an inspiration. Thank you for your honesty.

    I'm a Buddhist and I'll be chanting for your health and happiness. :)

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  134. Love the name of your blog! Honest and true. My mom--who's fine now--would have loved it when she had breast cancer! Surely, a heart as big as yours will be too much for cancer, and it will just have to go away.

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  135. Hey Nannette,

    Cancer-survivor on a love bomb mission here. Totally connecting on "Sometimes we all feel we can relate to each other, but sometimes we notice how each experience is unique."

    So, spinning my Bhutanese prayer wheel for you, your kids, your docs and nurses, the researchers and advocates . . . .

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  136. Dear Nanette -
    You are an amazing and beautiful lady! Your strength is one to be admired - it brings tears to my eyes. Prayers and love is being sent your way!

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  137. To cry is to release all kinds of tension and I think endorphins too which in a funny kind of way actually make you feel better. That you cry for happy and sad things is also good. There are many people including myself who wish tears of joy would come more often. Hugs and lots of love

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  138. Wow! I'm in awe of how brave and candid you are...sure signs of a wonderful person. Stay strong sister friend and know that there is someone way up here in Northern Canada cheering you on, praying for you and sending you the warmest hugs imaginable. :)

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  139. I concur with everyone's posts about crying- I think it's necessary for our souls, and restorative. I also think that we can draw strength from it. What a brave woman to show your children that you can cry, but not be broken. I want to thank you for inspiring me to fight for myself, and much love to you for sharing your battle with us.

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  140. Dear Nanette,
    You can do this, girlfriend. You ARE doing it. You are beautiful, intelligent, strong, capable, and none of that is changed by your fight with breast cancer; I know that you feel the truth of that most days :-)

    I am sitting here at my desk, looking down at my pink bracelet, and saying a prayer of hope and peace for you. You don't know me, but I am out here, sending you spiritual sunshine for today, for the next few days, and much, MUCH love!!!

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  141. Sometimes crying is the best medicine, too!

    You have a beautiful spirit! Sending you wishes for wellness and strength!

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  142. Dear Nanette,
    You're incredibly inspirational, and I just wanted you to know that you are fantastic. Your kids are lucky to have a Mom like you. Stay strong, extra thoughts and prayers sent your way.

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  143. So much love from you and to you. I am inspired by your strength and living.

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  144. Hi Nanette,

    I want to take a moment and thank you for your tears! I know you don't know me, but your willingness to feel in each moment and release in theface of feelings, fear, joy, the unknown gives me permission (and others) to do the same. You are a wounded healer simply because you are authentic and lovely!

    Thank you,

    much love

    a stranger...named Annie

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  145. Nanette, I am so touched reading your blog. It makes me want to cry to think of everything you are going through. Breast cancer has touched many people around me as I know it has many others. Your courage and love of life come shining through your words. It is clear that you are already blessed but I will add my prayers to the pile. With love from Vancouver, Canada.

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  146. I loved your post - Music is me.

    Music + a good cry = not a bad way to spend your day.

    Many many many thoughts of strength and sticky fairy health dust.

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  147. Lots of love to you and your children...may you come through the other side stronger than ever.

    Love Mikey

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  148. Sending lots of love and prayers for joy and healing and comfort your way! Your kids are so lucky to have such a strong, beautiful, inspiring mom. :) Thank you for sharing your story with such courage and honesty.

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  149. I am SO inspired by you! Thank you for your strength! My thoughts and prayers are sent your way!

    -Jessie

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  150. Nannette,

    May God's grace be with you as you travel this path. You are not alone. HE is always with you...I hope you are creating a scrapbook so in many years, YOU, your children and GRANDchildren can talk about this together.

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  151. Much love to you. Cancer is not a death sentence only a life change sentence. Alkalinize your body (veggie, nut and seed) and watch your immune system take hold. Cancer thrives on sugar (refined and fruit sugar) and in an acidic condition in the body (caffine, meat, dairy, processed food). It cannot survive when the blood is alkaline (lots of greens). No drugs needed. I know many who have cured thru diet. One love and much strength to you.

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  152. Keep your chin up and take time to take care of yourself - it *will* get better!

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  153. So many people are here for you. Don't ever give up. You are so strong ad beautiful. You are such an inspiration.

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  154. I cried reading your post...dang hormones, but what would this world be without emotional outbursts? One wouldn't know just how wonderful happiness is without having experienced sadness as well. I'm praying that you know more happiness then sadness and live life to its fullest. Your amazing!! (((((hugs)))))

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  155. Nothing wrong with crying, for any reason, happy or sad. I'm encouraged by your strength and inspired by your determination.

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  156. Dear Nanette,

    I am Igor, from Brazil, and when I came to your site to write you a message I thought I was the one who was going to encourage you, but the opposite happened.
    One of my best friend's mom had breast cancer a couple years ago and she did the same to me at that time, it is incredible how strong some people find out they are in times like these, and you are clearly a strong person.
    Strenght does not come from power, despite what the world may say. Strenght comes from love, love for life, love for people around you.
    When you cry, you're not showing weakness, you are showing strenght. Love bounds you to your kids, to the world around you, and this LOVE will cure you I am so sure of it.
    My friend's mom vision of the world reminds what I just read in your post and guess what: she got better and despite all the bad side effects she suffered back there, she is 100% OK now. I am so sure that the same will happen to you, because you have the strenght and love for all that is.
    As long as you love. As long as you're happy despite being sad sometimes, which is also normal ... as long as you have this power within you ... I am sure you will do fine.
    My best wishes for you and for your kids... Me and my friends are sending our good vibes to you ....

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  157. Wishing you a successful recovery.

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  158. Oh, let the tears come! I used to be so ashamed of mine, but now I think they're a huge part of healing. Let them flow and feel how life touches your heart:)

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  159. Sending love and positive thoughts your way.x

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  160. For each tear, may you have 1000 times the smiles and giggles....

    But allow the tears... they are cathartic and healing and, oh, so, normal
    You are in my thoughts and prayers from this day forward

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  161. I'm in awe of your boundless joy and courage in the face of such adversity. With your wonderful attitude, I know that you will make it. You go girl!!!
    You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. XO

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  162. Your will is very encouraging!

    My mom defeated breast cancer a few years back. It was tough on all of us, but use it to your advantage. Beat it by taking action for yourself, sharing the love, and then taking action for others!

    Best of luck!

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  163. Have a good cry and stay strong - you can and you will beat this :-)

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  164. Sending you good wishes and lots of love today!

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  165. After the rain comes the sunshine, let it pour! :) The One who counts your teardrops is big enough to hold your pain and fear. He is taking care of you and your children. We grieve your losses with you. You are not alone.

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  166. I admire your strength and honesty. Know that the tears will pass, although sometimes what we really need is just to cry. Take care, and I wish you and your family all the best during this difficult phase in your lives.

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  167. Take good care of yourself, whatever that looks like...

    Also, I agree with you - marmosets are awesome!

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  168. Feel what you need to feel, dear lady! And know that there are those of us out there who are throwing our arms around you and giving you hugs and stuff.

    Your spirit and attitude are contagious and you bring so much love and joy to so many.

    Thank you for continuing to share.

    Hugs.

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  169. Although too much crying can be annoying, the good part is you are acknowledging all the good things in your life. Crying isn't always related to sadness, it can also be related to joy, relief, exhaustion... It's a way for the soul to get the fullness of emotion out. So let yourself cry and know that a lot of people, near and far, are there to support you!

    Continue on your courageous fight!

    :)

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  170. Nanette...reading your blog posts has me crying! You are an amazingly strong and determined woman, and you WILL beat this. Crying is a release from the emotions that overwhelm us...cry, and get it out as often as you need to, no matter the reason. Lots of love and mojo coming your way...thank you for sharing your journey :) xoxo

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  171. I recently lost two Aunts to Cancer. One was very quick with out a chance to fight. The other had a 13 year battle with lung cancer that amazes not only her family and friends but most every medical professional she had met. She left us when she was ready not when the cancer was. If she listened to the doctors she would have been gone 12 years earlier. You see Nanette, you are not alone, it is people like you and my Aunt that inspire millions. You show us how spirit, determination, and a little bit of faith can move mountains. Thank you for sharing and helping to strengthen my faith. Steady the course and never forget we are behind you following your lead but ready to catch you should you stumble along the way. All my best, keep the faith.

    Michael

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  172. Your strength is such an inspiration to me. Your children are blessed to have such an amazing mother as a role model for them. Sending thoughts and prayers you way.
    -Sandi

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  173. Nanette,
    My thoughts and prayers are with you and your kids during this trying time. Hang in there and keep up the writing!
    Cathy Streight

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  174. Nanette,

    Your strength is incredible and I wish you all the health and happiness possible!

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  175. Stay strong! You're awesome :)

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  176. Nanette~

    As you can see by all these comments you are clearly an inspiration to many. That is truly something to be proud of….good for you! I simply wanted to say that you will be in my prayers. I will pray that God will give you the strength through all the ups and downs and that he would cause your day to overflow with joy…even if it does bring tears.

    Blessings to you!

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  177. Don't let a couple of leaky eyes get you down! Praying that your mood and health improve. There's love enough in the world to cover all the bad stuff. Sending some your way this week.

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  178. Hi Nanette! Blessings to you and your children as you continue the fight. People like you are my heroes! Cry if you need to. Laugh when you can. And know you are not alone!
    Love & Hugs,
    Laurie in Michigan

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  179. bless you bless you bless you!!!!! your attitude is an inspiration

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  180. I wanted to let you know I know exactly how you feel- I'm a breast cancer survivor and mother too. I also have those days too , and I think it is good for you.. I'm sending you thoughts of positive thoughts, and I hope the rest of your treatments fly by, soon enough that part will be over! my last treatment I was hugging everyone in my dr office I was so happy- I think my dcotor even got 2 hugs!! lol :)
    Know there are many people thinking of you and sending you their positive thoughts & prayers!! take care

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  181. Lots of love and hugs and kisses from Argentina!! I'm sure you'll be ok, you have a friend here :)

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  182. one of Vada's ladiesOctober 14, 2010 at 12:35 PM

    your strength is an inspiration not only to your children but to those around you!

    I'm doing the Philly 3Day walk this weekend. I'm adding your name to those I will be thinking about and praying for. hang in there, keep on fighting!

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  183. You are brave and strong, and an amazing example of someone who's carrying on despite your illness. Know that you're touching a lot of lives by sharing your story. I'm praying for continued strength for you. Lots of love xxx

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  184. God bless you! I know that you can beat this. Keep a positive attitude. I'm praying for you! :)

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  185. This post is truly inspirational. Thank you for sharing.
    You seem like such a brave lady and your kids are so lucky to have such an awesome role model. Much love.
    -Kellie

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  186. Be strong and know that God is with you. You are an amazing woman and you WILL beat this! Praying for you!

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  187. I honestly can't get over how strong you are. You really are so amazing, and so beautiful. Inside and out.

    Stay smiling, you can get through this <3.

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  188. Sometimes crying is the best thing you can do! Stay strong; you are truly an inspiration!

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  189. Your a strong, beautiful woman and if you need a shoulder to cry on, there are many people here for you :)

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  190. In the darkness of night, the moon bravely rises and travels the heavens. The stars come out from hiding and twinkle. We who support you are there too! Like the stars, we are there loving you. Maybe you know some of us, maybe you will never meet all of us, but we, like the stars are there for you!
    Shine on and twinkle, dear sister star!

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  191. Hey girl, stay strong. You have people out there hoping and wishing and praying for you. :)

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  192. I can hardly believe your strength. Cry all you want; it doesn't matter. You're still an unbelievebly, amazingly strong woman.

    Much love!

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  193. I have read some of your blog and really do admire you for courage and honesty, and for you how grateful you are for all the little things! I think that crying is cleansing no matter how much or how little...with all your going through I think a good cry about anything counts as postive and affirming that you are real! I send my warm thoughts and admiration to you and know you will continue on this strong path to recovery...thank you for letting me share and thank you for sharing. :)

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  194. There is nothing more powerful thank sharing your feelings, both the good and the bad. The moments of strength and the moments where your hope may waiver. I love what you've been writing and I hope you continue to share yourself--I happily connected to your words!! Xoxo

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